As my husband, Steve, and I tore out the white carpet from our house, I felt horrified to discover the concrete subfloor contained numerous cracks that crawled across every room. In addition, the visibly non-level floor tempted us to become discouraged about putting in the vinyl or tile floor we wanted.
"Will we be able to get this floor project completed before we leave for vacation?" I asked. We had a little less than a month.
Steve and I did some research into what it would take to level the floor, as well as what kind of flooring would fit our budget. The decision-making process took more time than I thought because the many issues weren't resolving quickly. I felt stuck. My impatience and frustration increased as the days passed without a concrete decision (excuse the pun).
Nothing frustrating appears in our outer life without reflecting something hidden going on internally. We project the hidden material onto our outer world. When we look at our outer situation from the heart and allow it to become a mirror for our inner issues, we make those issues conscious.
I saw how the cracked foundation in my home represented my flawed conditioning - the beliefs and wounds I carried from the past. The part of us that appears broken underlies much of what we think, say and do. Rather than have it exposed, I wanted to cover it as quickly as possible. In my home, it pervaded every room.
I expressed my frustration to a friend, who planted the idea of loving the floor with all its imperfections. I went home and sat in the middle of the bare, cracked concrete. I opened to its ugly condition, allowing myself to love the cracks and the imperfections. As I mentally put my arms around my floor, I felt my heart open and the gratitude flow. I had come to a deeper self-love.
I arose from the floor, sensing the way had become clear for outer events to start moving. The very next day, the details fell into place and we engaged the services of a flooring company in time to complete the project before our vacation.
In spite of the appearance of cracks in the foundation of our inner selves, there is nothing broken and nothing to fix. Seeing ourselves from a state of Being, our past conditioning was never wrong.
I encourage you to love the cracks and flaws in your inner foundation and to know they are lovely and perfect just as they are. Then they won't need to appear as projections in your life situations or relationships!
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